Should be an Easy Run

It should be an easy run tonight. This is nothing special. I have no real competition. Crush already looked it over. She said it’s smooth, told me not to push it if I don’t have to.

I nodded, but she knows I will. She knows that though. 

I used to watch you from the passenger seat. It was fun to watch your hands on the wheel.

I knew back then I would do everything just like you.

The car did whatever you told it to. It looked like nothing could go wrong.

Mom asked where I was going.

I told her it’s nothing.
Quick run. In and out.

She smiled.

Same way she always does now.

Like she believes me or doesn’t want to ask.

Engine’s warming up.

Feels right.

Almost too right.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

I still hear you when I line it up.

Don’t fight it.
Let it talk.

I don’t fight it.

I don’t fight anything anymore; I just miss you. 

The light’s about to go green.

It’s just another night. 

Let’s get this money.